Personal Goals for 2018

14 January 2018

Happy New Year, everyone! I don't know about you, but I'm pretty relieved 2017 has come to a close. Although not nightmarishly insufferable as 2016 was, 2017 was nothing to come home about. Conclusively, it seems to have been pretty shite for most everyone, as a whole. It wasn't until towards the end of the year that I truly enjoyed life, having travelled to Iceland and Scotland, surrounded myself with family, and all those good bits. 2017 was filled with much drama I intend to leave behind me this year, and start looking forward.

On the topic of looking forward, I hope to make 2018 the year of focus. Towards the end of December of last year and throughout this month I've noticed myself finally beginning to have an even stronger desire to obtain what I really want (and some things I have always wanted but never even touched or thought I'd actually achieve) from life. Don't get me wrong, 2016 and 2017 were very important years for personal self-growth, (which is still inarguably significant) having recovered from trauma and receiving and coping with my diagnosis of BPD--but I hope to make 2018 the year that my professional goals will flourish, or even begin.

I hope to use this blog post to regain my focus and allow for every decision I make to contribute toward these goals this year. Hopefully, it will be a productive and valuable year for me, despite it being the Year of the Dog, which, according to tradition, shall bring anyone born in the Year of the Dog (myself included and all you other 1994 friends!) excessive bad luck. I'm trying to remain optimistic though!

And now for the list! I'm going to start off with the big ones, things that will take a lot of work and a lot of time to achieve, but am very willing to put in all the effort! I'm done being vague now, let's get more specific:

Citizenship & Moving: This is probably the most significant thing in my life that I will ever work towards (probably). For as long as I can remember (and some very specific moments in high school when I recall sitting in Chemistry researching this on my laptop instead of paying attention to the lecture), I have wanted to obtain dual citizenship (the ideal), or revoke my American citizenship entirely for British citizenship. Having been born in British territory (British Hong Kong, before 1997) as a British citizen and raised on certain aspects of British culture to American parents, then moving to the States, I always been interested exploring my identity in that regard and look into somehow obtaining dual citizenship. I have already taken some of the necessary steps and have much more research and meetings before I can really begin the process, including chatting with current dual-citizens, researching fees of consultations at the British consulate, obtaining a digital copy of my birth certificate, etc., and I look forward to getting closer and closer with each step.

Things that have contributed to this decision include my most recent visit to Edinburgh, where my best friend lives. Each and every time I step foot there (or even the more clich├ęd London), I feel at home. Although there are ways to move there as an American citizen, I'd prefer to avoid the issue of visas, possibility of deportation, etc., if possible, and I definitely would have no intention of moving back to the States. Living in the UK would be a permanent decision.

In light of recent political decisions in the States (cough, Trump, cough), the end of 2016 and the entirety of 2017 has really pushed me away from the thought of wanting a life in this country, despite some (albeit few) redeeming qualities. Although I love San Francisco, I have more than enough reasons to leave, as presented to me in the past few years, and it will always be a home to me, but I always knew it was a temporary home.

I know realistically that moving by the end of this year will be impossible, but I would like to at the very least pursue the requirements essential for the prospect of moving abroad in the next few years.

Starting My Actual Career: These two years since graduating university, my main goal has been making money and being able to be financially independent. Despite achieving that (with some bumps in the road) and being proud of that fact, I've realised now that I've set my ~*dreams aside just to make a comfortable living. I'm feeling more and more inspired lately to do the things I've always just thought about in bed at night. For those of you who don't know, although it becomes exceedingly obvious upon meeting me in person, I'm an actress. I've worked somewhat in the last year, but not nearly as much as I'd like to. Ideally, acting would be my full-time job and I would have another job (preferably my current full-time job) on the side for a more consistent income. Anxiety and depression have held me back from doing what needs to be done to actually begin my career, but I've decided enough is enough. Steps for this include:

  • Submitting and auditioning for as much as possible
  • Applying for agencies
  • Network with fellows in the industry
Become More Consistent Online: Speaking of careers, I very much am interested in putting more work into my blog and YouTube channel, and hopefully making it something more than just a passion project. I think a huge factor in making that happen (as I've read in countless blog posts, heard in videos, etc. about the subject) is consistency. Ideally, this year, I would like to write a blog post and make a video every week (!!!!). Not only will this quite possibly increase my presence and following online, but I will have a weekly creative outlet doing things that I genuinely enjoy. I always feel so very productive when I complete a blog post or video, and feeling that every week will keep me going and make me feel less ~stuck.

There are smaller things I'd like to aim for as well this year, including:

  • Grow out my hair!
  • Read (at least) one book each month
  • Obtain a regulated sleeping schedule
  • Drink more water!
  • (Maybe??) get my driver's license??
  • Go to therapy consistently again
  • Eat more fruits and vegetables 
  • Wear my retainer every night
  • Never miss medication
If you're still with me, thank you so much for reading! What are some things you're going to work on this year, month, or even week? Please let me know down below in the comments and we can work on ourselves together this year! Each new day is a new opportunity for self-love, don't let one unproductive day hold you back!

x, Sarah

*photos by Meghan

  • teddy (worn as top): vintage                                           
  • bra: jezebel
  • skirt: vintage                       
  • skirt (worn as petticoat): target  

  • foundation: bourjois
  • blusher: sleek
  • lips: nudestix (in "vino")
  • eyeliner: nyx

  • 1 comment:

    1. I hope you get everything you want this year and more!
      Work hard even when people or life in general makes you feel like your goals are "too hard". Sometimes the best roads are the hardest to take; but they're worth it.<3



    Related Posts Plugin for WordPress, Blogger...