The Seasons Have Changed

27 September 2017

...and so have we. 

It is officially my favourite season--autumn! Although the beginnings of autumn in San Francisco aren't exactly enjoyable (today it got up to 115º!), I look forward to the cooler nights to come, when I can see my breath and bundle up in oversized scarves and sweaters.

As we approach October, I can't help but reflect on how far I've come since October last. Around this time of year in 2016 was definitely when my mental health hit rock bottom. Of course, I don't remember those days (or, nights, rather) in especially fond light, but it is comforting to see where I am now and how much my overall happiness has improved since then. This is also the same time I was diagnosed with BPD, which marks the starting point to my road to recovery and newfound happiness. Although I am not in perfect shape, I am the most stable I've been in years.

Despite all of that, I still have bad days. If you suffer from mental illness and have been doing well for a while and fall back every now and then, you know how it feels. I find it's really important to forgive yourself and remember that just because you have a few bad days where it feels like everything is spiralling back to the way it used to be, doesn't mean that your work thus far was in vain. Keeping track of these patterns and what triggers them, however, is equally important. Personally, my anxiety has been worse than usual, which I've targeted to be a result of financial and organisation issues. The best thing to do in this case to relieve my anxiety is tackle those specific problems at hand currently. It doesn't mean I will be curing my anxiety, as it will always be a part of me, but making small changes to soften the blow of the symptoms is what can make living with mental illness feel slightly more possible. 

I think the new season is great motivation to kick yourself into shape and develop new healthy habits in areas of your life you'd like to improve! For example, here are some things I'll work on for the autumn season:
  • Decluttering my home
  • Healthier eating habits
  • Financial management & budgeting
  • Hydration
  • Getting on a regular sleeping schedule
Having too long of a list can seem overwhelming, so just focusing on one point each week is a great way to relieve that stress and still work towards your goal! If you feel mentally healthy and don't have concerns like these, try setting a life goal and coming up with a list of actions or improvements you can make to reach that goal! Feeling productive and busy is what helps me to not dwell on the stress and anxieties in my life.

One of my biggest struggles is feeling as though I have to spend every spare minute freely available on being productive, which only causes me more anxiety and stress! Keep in mind that it's okay to take a day off where you just relax all day, especially if you had a really busy week. Sometimes overworking and not taking a breather can be worse for you in the end, so you deserve to rest every now and then! I like to treat myself with a nap, a bubble bath, or a face mask.

What are some things on your list of what to focus on/change this coming season? What do you do to unwind on your days off? Let me know in the comments! Always looking for more inspiration & motivation!

x Sarah

  • blouse: vintage
  • trousers: vintage
  • hat: vintage                        
  • coat: h&m (old)                      
  • shoes: primark (old)
  • handbag: vintage
  • belt: vintage
  • lips: nars
  • eyeliner: nyx 
  • brows: anastasia beverly hills
  • 1 comment:

    1. Sending all my love.. I know exactly how you feel, but keeping busy does help!
      P.S you look amazing!

      Emma at


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